Sweet Miracles

I have been meeting interesting pple these days thanks to the homeopath friend i met through hypnotherapy class. One of them is a lady whom i chatted with for over an hour yesterday. She’s a really fascinating woman, and she shared with me about her work, the challenges she has faced in her life, the people she encountered as clients and in workshops. It was very nice to listen to her cos she was so open and warm and humourous, so i just listened, without any expectations or pressure to respond. Maybe it’s cos i was so engaged in her sharing, that she shared so much too… who knows.

Anyway, she’s into the healing field as well, and does workshops to help people find themselves and their life purpose. She’s such a sincere and inspiring speaker that i can see myself joining her workshop one day when the conditions are right. We came to talk about my issue of abundance, or rather, scarcity, and she asked me a few questions which i couldn’t really come up with any reply for.

We were not having a coaching session, but i sensed that she wanted to help me (and indeed, later she told me she was). We didn’t get anywhere, except for some new-agey intellectual kinda advice, which wasn’t a problem with me cos as i said, it wasn’t a coaching session and i was just enjoying her personal sharing.

Eventually, i asked her to send me info about her workshop and wrote down my email for her. When she saw my email, she did a double take and asked me how come my email id is fuzzylena. I laughed cos i knew where she was coming from, and i told her i just had this from a very young age and i’m not even sure why i chose this name. She asked me if i knew that fuzzy doesn’t have very postive connotations. Again, i laughed, even though she was being serious.

She was like, no wonder i feel that during all this, you are here but not here. I was both bemused and curious at the same time. Yes, i believed in numerology and importance of your name and all, but i never thought that an email would have any significance on the person. At the same time, there was a part of me that was slapping her head and saying, geez…i shld have known better. After all, with the advent of Internet, email id has become almost as impt as your personal name, and reflects your identity just as much as your real name. So all this while, i have been portraying myself as a fuzzy person… whatever that is!

I guess after the hilarity of this discovery (she felt that THIS was the breakthrough she was hoping me to get), i am rather stunned. In fact, i was quite speechless and didn’t know what to say. Suddenly, all the pieces of my life came together. Ok… at least all the FUZZY pieces. These were the scenes that flashed through my mind. The times when i was seemingly multi-tasking and doing 5 things at one time, in a totally haphazard manner, until i would forget what it is i was supposed to do next, and before i even get there, i get distracted and do something else instead. This happens most when i’m doing office admin and when i’m in the kitchen (which explains why i’m not very gd in office admin, and the kitchen often looks like a mess). There are also those other times when my mind goes blank in a social situation, not cos of anxiety, but simply cos i either didn’t know what was going on, or i don’t know what to think, OR i don’t know how to put my thoughts into words.

Who knows if it’s all because my email id is fuzzylena! But i have this feeling that there is some kind of link, and it’s all thanks to my choice in this cute-sounding (at least to a 9 yr old me!) name that has apparently made me identify with the fuzzy part of me, and portray myself as a fuzzy person. She said different pple prob have different interpretations of fuzzy (really?), so everyone prob sees me according to their own interpretation as to what fuzzy means.

What DOES fuzzy mean anyway? Oh yeah… now i rem, i prob thought the word was cute because it reminded me of those fuzzy-wuzzy hairy ball thingy that used to be quite popular years ago. I also knew there was the term fuzzy logic, which i didn’t quite get at that time, and still don’t get till today. Guess fuzzy also connotes unclear, distorted, blur? Geez… now why didn’t i use some other email name, like queenlena, or lovegoddess…

Well, now i have at least one reason that explains why part of my life and my actions are fuzzed-up, guess i need to undo the fuzz. And i was groaning in front of her, about all the internet admin i would have to do. She assured me that this shouldn’t be a reason to get stressed, and i prob just need to do it step by step which is true.

The other question is, if not fuzzylena, then what? She said if i just take some time to meditate on it, i will think of something. Hmm… guess i’ll send out a call to the universe for some divine inspiration for a new email id.

Health is another thing that i’m going to manifest for. While i’m the healthiest one in the family right now (both little boy and Mr Gua Gua down with cough, the latter in a pretty bad state), i don’t feel that great either. My energy level is at an all-time low, despite 8-10 hours of sleep every night, and my pale complexion with dark eyebags are staring back at me with a frown everytime i look in a mirror. Wonder if i should see a doc or something… hmm, maybe will try EFT first and see how it goes.

Career-wise, things continue to look interesting. My colleague is helping me to advocate for acceptance of EFT, and the ED seems to be considering it. Though frankly, i’m not sure if i care anymore. I believe in synergy of working in groups, yet, organisations have their disadvantages, with everyone having their own views, and politicking. Will just keep an open mind and see where the universe takes me to!

I’m just riding on a wave of EFT excitement at the moment cos i’m learning so many new and fascinating things from the DVDs. I just finished the one on Allergy Antidotes in the Specialties II series, and i am definitely going to do a workshop on it cos it seems like allergies are so prevalent in this time and age, with overpopulation, environmental pollution, increase in GMO foods, etc. Apparently, allergies or substance sensitivities are the cause of many of our emotional and physical symptoms, and most of us aren’t aware of it. Only 2% of allergies/substance sensitivities lead to an immediate, noticeable reaction, whereas 98% of them have some adverse effect on the body that is largely unnoticeable, and accumulates over time till some kind of reaction shows up. Those who may have substance sensitivities could have symptoms or conditions that include the following:

• permanent puffy eyebags (that includes me!)
• sinuses
• chronic symptoms e.g. headaches, coughing, itchy eyes
• weight gain, and difficulty in losing weight
• depression
• panic attacks
• autism
• ADHD/ADD
• asthma
• rashes
• etc…

Right now i don’t have enough content to do the background explanation of allergies and how it affects pple, so i might need to do some research on that, but my idea is that most pple aren’t that interested in that kind of thing anyway. So the bulk of the workshop would be on using muscle testing to diagnose the substances we are sensitive to, and using EFT to neutralise that. It’s amazing, cos in the early days of EFT, energy toxins (which are the same as things that we are allergic to) are one of the factors that prevent success with EFT, and it was once thought that energy toxins cannot be treated, only avoided. So for pple whose energy toxins include wheat, they have to stay on a wheat-free diet for the rest of the life. Now, the simple solution is to just treat it with EFT, and it works!

When i heard Sandi, the trainer (can’t spell her last name) explain that there are many pple who go through life suffering from conditions that have unexplainable causes and when they finally find out that it’s due to a certain substance in their life, they feel such a huge sense of relief from regaining some kind of control over the condition, even if it was to avoid that particular substance. Of cos, treating it with EFT so that they don’t have to avoid it is a real bonus, and for those who suffer very badly from their allergies/substance sensitivities, this can be a lifesaver. This made me decide that i should conduct this workshop at least once, in case there IS a group of pple out there in Singapore who are allergies sufferers and haven’t benefitted properly from conventional treatment. I don’t know if it’s going to be a lifesaver for the participants, but it will definitely be an eye-opening and fun experience.

My idea (and it’s ok if anyone out there copies it cos it’s hardly that original and the more pple out there who do this kind of work, the better) is that i will give a brief intro on allergies, which will prob be common knowledge and will already be covered in the publicity flyer. This will be followed by demos on pple who know their allergies and the symptoms they get, and i will do both muscle testing to show the effect of the substance on their energy system, and EFT to show the improvement in the condition. Hopefully i will get props to better demonstrate the effects… most likely, some sugary dessert, coffee and cell phones.

After which, i will teach participants to do proper muscle testing, and this MAY require some rehearsing on my part cos from experience, not everyone can do muscle testing properly. It’s impt to stay open-minded and not have any attachment to the results. Also, clear instructions must be given by the tester e.g. keep the arm level, do NOT push upwards, just resist lightly, and once you feel your arm unable to resist then let it go down all the way. I just tried muscle testing with Mr Gua Gua this evening and the competitive streak in him just made him push against my fingers so that i couldn’t really tell if it was really strong or weak. In any case, we did get some results for each other and i even had Mr Gua Gua muscle test me on behalf of little boy, so all of us got cleared on certain substance sensitivities today!

Well, the experiential part would be the highlight of the workshop. My intention is to get participants to pair up, and i will hand each pair a set of words that are common allergens. I have typed it out this afternoon and will do the photocopying and cutting soon. Basically, as those who are familiar with Dr Emoto’s work will know, the written word contains vibrations that correlate with the meaning of the word, and this applies to any language. Simply by putting the word of the substance against the body, the body will tune into the energy of that substance and respond accordingly.

For those of you who know muscle testing, try it with a partner! Try Love/Hate, Yes/No, and once you see the effect of these words on your body, you can try common allergens like wheat, egg, soy, dust, etc. Little boy’s magnetic drawing pad came in handy this evening, and apparently, Mr Gua Gua’s funny face drawing didn’t have a very gd effect on his own energy either. Hmmm….

Once all the pairs have gotten through the words i have provided them with - perhaps i will instruct them to bring their medications and other substances they want to test, so they can try them out during this process as well - they would have gotten a list of substances they have been tested to be sensitive towards. I’m guessing some of the results would be surprising to them, especially since i now know that we are commonly addicted to the very same stuff we are allergic to, so it’s probable that participants would say things like, i eat this almost every day!

Well, the gd thing abt this workshop is, it doesn’t mean participants now need to sacrifice the things we love, cos i will simply ask everyone to tap as a group on their own substance sensitivities. I still need to work this part out a lil more cos i think it would take too much time if we break into pairs again and confirm that all the substance sensitivities have been neutralised. Maybe i’ll just do a few more demos on pple to show that some of their substance sensitivities have been neutralised, and ask everyone to go home to finish their EFT.

Frankly, this is a very simple workshop that most pple can do at home. The only thing is you need to find a willing partner to do muscle testing with you, and some pple may have trouble with that. At least the workshop will provide a conducive environment for the muscle testing AND EFTing, and you may gain some friends in the meantime. I’m fortunate that Mr Gua Gua was willing to “play” the game with me (even though he was mock laughing throughout and found the whole thing bizarre) but he got bored after 15 min, and we have tested perhaps 7-9 substances on each other and little boy. With the workshop, i will prob give about 40 min for the pair work and they will quickly go through all the words i provide them, and their own stuff if they have time for it, so this is a rather effective method of diagnosing your own substance sensitivities and treating it. I’m not sure about the cost of more conventional allergies diagnosis and treatments, but i bet it’s more costly in both time and money for sure!

Anyway, as i said before, i don’t know what would be the demand for this be like, but i’m convinced by Sandi that this can potentially save lives, and there might be a real need out there. I don’t want to be Jack of all trades, so i may not conduct EFT workshops on every single issue out there, unless i truly enjoy the experience. It is possible that my EFT for allergies workshop can start a new wave, and preceding this, other pple will conduct similar workshops, and i can continue or discontinue this out of my own preference, and know that the demand will be met by other pple.

In fact, i’m meeting my homeopathy friend to lend him the DVD and discuss my idea with him. Somehow, i feel this will be very impt for him in his work, because he is already advising pple in nutrition, and while he may be familiar with the work of muscle testing or intuitive diagnosis, EFT for energy toxins might be something new. Perhaps he can expand on this work and give his own workshops in future, who knows!

Geez, i seem to be constantly bursting with new ideas these days… sure hope that my centre provides me with the opportunities to manifest them. Sometimes it’s frustrating to feel like i need to wait for the world to catch up with me… but then again, i remind myself, that everything happens at the right place at the right time, and i’m pretty sure that once the teacher is ready (me!), the students will appear, and so would the right environment!

Chanting has become a time for receiving inspiration. I know that supposedly, i should be just focusing on the mantra of om mani padme hung, which is my fave mantra for chanting, but sometimes my mind start to wander, and rather than trying to bring it back, i decide to let it loose and observe it. This, by the way, is what i believe the practice of mindfulness or vipassana, whereas chanting and other single-pointedness practices focus on the development of concentration or samadhi.

That’s how the ideas pop in. Mr Gua Gua believe that it’s because my mind gets clearer which is possible. I prefer to think that it’s because i’m closer to the Divine during my spiritual practice, and once anybody is linked up with the Divine/Source/God/etc, inspiration strikes.

U guys and the universe know by now that i’m manifesting for financial abundance right. At the same time, my life is mostly about EFT (and past life regression) and sharing it with more pple. I have gotten off to a pretty gd start with my 1st EFT Level I workshop and have another Level I coming up in July and Level II in August. Few days ago, the idea of conducting Borrowing Benefits sessions popped into my head.

Borrowing Benefits was discovered when Gary started receiving feedback from pple that just by tapping along with demonstrations, either live or on DVDs, they are getting their own issues cleared as well. Thus, Gary created a special series of DVDs called Borrowing Benefits, which consists of demonstrations that are structured specially for this purpose. I am not sure how these demos compare to other normal demos in outcomes, but according to Gary, he consciously stays around the parameters of the issue until he is sure that that sufficient tapping has been done to reduce the intensity of the issue before he dives in, thus sticking to his belief that therapy should not just be effective but also be as painless as possible (and with EFT, it can be definitely be done!). My thoughts are that the subconscious mind is pretty intelligent and would not give us more than we can handle, plus some gd old crying/screaming may not be that bad (more about this later!)… but i’m going to keep an open mind and study Gary’s Borrowing Benefits DVDs more carefully to see if the structure does increase the benefits for the participants.

Anyway, it has always been a dream of mine to use EFT in group therapy and i told my workshop participants about it. Because i was on a high, and in a way, i also wanted to demonstrate positive thinking to them, i told them it’s going to happen in the NEAR future. That was the first time i thought of it happening soon, much less announce to 20 over pple.

They say, writing your goal increases the power of manifesting it. Saying it aloud, even more so. And i just said it aloud to a whole group of pple who were very positive and had great faith in me. I guess this is why the idea popped back in my head during chanting and i started developing on the idea.

The end result is Borrowing Benefits (BB for short) sessions on every Wed and Fri evening, 6.30 - 8.30 pm (will have to take cab home after that!), open to only those who have attended my EFT Level I workshops or watched the EFT DVDs because i won’t want to waste precious time answering questions about EFT when the objective is to just keep tapping on our own issues throughout the 2 hours. It will be walk-in concept, and no registration needed, which means i can do it solo without needing help from colleagues. $10 per pax and by donation for those unemployed e.g. students (ah, i rem the days when $10 would buy me a whole week of meals!), homemakers, retirees.

As I told my Level I participants, BB sessions would be very good for those with trouble doing EFT on their own, or doing it but not getting very good results, because of the facilitator’s guidance and the synergy effect. Added advantages are you get to meet other pple who are committed to healing themselves, and this kind of support is just wonderful!

For me, i get added income, but i think for this, income is secondary because I am pricing it very low and i decided that even if just 2 persons show up, the show will go on. Another benefit is that i get to tap on my own issues too! Already i am increasing the frequency of tapping on myself because now that i am an EFT trainer and asking others to try it on everything, do it daily, i definitely need to walk the talk. But i am also looking forward to tapping myself in a group because the energy would be so much better that way. Imagine, getting paid for therapy on myself!

It would also be a win-win for my centre because they will get a portion of the proceeds, plus there will inevitably be those who want to seek one-to-one consultation after the BB sessions for deeper work, which will increase the clientele numbers.

As far as i can see, this is one of the best ideas yet because everyone benefits from BB! Already some of the participants have expressed interest, and i’m thinking of having some or all of the sessions themed around subjects such as fears, loss, anger, relationships, etc so that i can use more specific statements, hence increasing the efficacy. Still, BB claims to work even if the issues are different for everyone… i will need to experiment with this!

I was so excited with this plan that the moment i walked into the office i went to my projects person and asked him if he’s free to talk. So imagine my disappointment when he told me it may not go down well with the management as EFT is not supposed to be a main service of the centre, and having it weekly may be a bit too much. Well, in my mind, i had lots to say against that! But i just told him that i’ll take it slow then, and i pretended to be ok with it, but really, i think i was rather down for the rest of the day and next morning, and imagining that the whole office is against me because i’m going against the flow and doing something different.

I tapped on it for a while, not really knowing if it’s doing any good. But next morning, during chanting, i suddenly had the impulse to go to the ED to talk to him about BB. I remembered that days ago, i got the affirmation (from my home made affirmation cards) that dreams are the source of wisdom, and then i recalled a dream i had more than a month ago, which i vaguely remembered that the ED and i are very close, for some reason. Even though there are pple in the office painting him as a money-minded nominal Buddhist who is not a very nice person, i decided that rather than believing hearsay, i might as well get to know him myself. After i came to this decision, suddenly i was putting renewed effort in my chanting, feeling wonderfully recharged and joyful.

I also remembered that when i really want something, the universe will conspire in my favour. Since BB is going to benefit so many pple, there is no way the universe will not help me, which means BB IS Definitely Going To Happen - it’s a matter of how. With this knowing, i feel so much more reassured and supported cos whether BB will happen in the centre or outside, it doesn’t matter and I can’t fail.

Of cos, on the way to office, i was feeling a bit nervous abt going to meet the ED, and i tapped on all the what-ifs. When i reached office, i cldn’t see him in his office from the entrance and thought he went for lunch. As i had 3 clients that day, i was thinking of chickening out on seeing him, telling myself, maybe another day. As synchronicity would have it, my 2nd client cancelled on me which gave me some time to do my own admin work, and when i passed his office again, i saw that he’s there. Without even thinking (which is a gd thing!), i popped my head in to ask if he’s free to talk. He was.

Before I even started talking, he told me he took something from my table. Stunned, i was like huh? He told me he needed my name card. Then it clicked in my mind, as earlier on i noticed that blank space on my cubicle wall, but not remembering what was originally there. However, that namecard was my special manifestation namecard as i had liquided out my job designation and replaced it with “EFT Master, CH (Certfied Hypnotherapist)”! When i explained it to Mr T, half embarrassed and half thrilled that i’m sharing this more personal side of me with him, he was both shocked and amused that he had assumed that those were my actual credentials and was going to use those to make the new namecards i had requested for!

Well, that really broke the ice for me, and feeling much more relaxed, i told him my idea. To my surprise, he immediately got a pen and paper, and asked me, so what do you need? Then he jotted down all the stuff i told him, and basically said something to the effect of, done! In addition, he even asked me about my Saturday hours and expressed concern about my safety being the only staff around. He asked if i had a safety plan. I laughingly replied that my plan would be to pray for divine protection (and i was actually very serious about that)! Again, i was kinda thrilled that i could feel so comfortable with Mr T and he seemed rather amused by me. At the same time, also felt touched by his kindness, and very glad that i decided not to take the words of others seriously, cos otherwise, i wldn’t have known that Mr T is actually quite an easygoing and fatherly person. Plus he is very present with me, unlike previous heads who can have their own agenda and are not always fully attentive, and at times, even talking more than me, about things not relevant to what i said. Seems like that dream was meant to be a gd omen after all.

When i left his office, i had an urge to jump in the air and give a whoopee! I couldn’t help but beam from ear to ear as i walked past my projects colleague and told him, BB-ok. He was really surprised to hear that, and i am a little concerned that he would respond negatively to it, either with embarassment, that his words didn’t come true, or with anger that i didn’t take his words and just went straight to the ED. But he’s a true practising Buddhist and i believe his true nature would override those emotions, if any at all, and in any case, we are all serving humanity. Ultimately, as Mother Teresa puts it, it’s never between us and them, but us and God i.e. who cares what pple think!

Once again, i relearn the impt lessons, that hearsay cannot be believed, and pple often respond accordingly when we think the best of them (the converse is true too!). In fact, some of the hearsay is second hand and even third hand. Sometimes, it’s from mind-reading and none of them are psychics! From now on, i am going to take rumours and gossip abt pple with a real little pinch of salt, and if i want to get accurate info, i wld have to hear it from the horse’s mouth as much as possible. How much misunderstanding and frustration we can prevent this way!

Well, Borrowing Benefits classes will start in August, together with EFT Level II. I have so many things to relearn and develop and prepare… it’s going to be an exciting ride!