Sweet Miracles

I have been meeting interesting pple these days thanks to the homeopath friend i met through hypnotherapy class. One of them is a lady whom i chatted with for over an hour yesterday. She’s a really fascinating woman, and she shared with me about her work, the challenges she has faced in her life, the people she encountered as clients and in workshops. It was very nice to listen to her cos she was so open and warm and humourous, so i just listened, without any expectations or pressure to respond. Maybe it’s cos i was so engaged in her sharing, that she shared so much too… who knows.

Anyway, she’s into the healing field as well, and does workshops to help people find themselves and their life purpose. She’s such a sincere and inspiring speaker that i can see myself joining her workshop one day when the conditions are right. We came to talk about my issue of abundance, or rather, scarcity, and she asked me a few questions which i couldn’t really come up with any reply for.

We were not having a coaching session, but i sensed that she wanted to help me (and indeed, later she told me she was). We didn’t get anywhere, except for some new-agey intellectual kinda advice, which wasn’t a problem with me cos as i said, it wasn’t a coaching session and i was just enjoying her personal sharing.

Eventually, i asked her to send me info about her workshop and wrote down my email for her. When she saw my email, she did a double take and asked me how come my email id is fuzzylena. I laughed cos i knew where she was coming from, and i told her i just had this from a very young age and i’m not even sure why i chose this name. She asked me if i knew that fuzzy doesn’t have very postive connotations. Again, i laughed, even though she was being serious.

She was like, no wonder i feel that during all this, you are here but not here. I was both bemused and curious at the same time. Yes, i believed in numerology and importance of your name and all, but i never thought that an email would have any significance on the person. At the same time, there was a part of me that was slapping her head and saying, geez…i shld have known better. After all, with the advent of Internet, email id has become almost as impt as your personal name, and reflects your identity just as much as your real name. So all this while, i have been portraying myself as a fuzzy person… whatever that is!

I guess after the hilarity of this discovery (she felt that THIS was the breakthrough she was hoping me to get), i am rather stunned. In fact, i was quite speechless and didn’t know what to say. Suddenly, all the pieces of my life came together. Ok… at least all the FUZZY pieces. These were the scenes that flashed through my mind. The times when i was seemingly multi-tasking and doing 5 things at one time, in a totally haphazard manner, until i would forget what it is i was supposed to do next, and before i even get there, i get distracted and do something else instead. This happens most when i’m doing office admin and when i’m in the kitchen (which explains why i’m not very gd in office admin, and the kitchen often looks like a mess). There are also those other times when my mind goes blank in a social situation, not cos of anxiety, but simply cos i either didn’t know what was going on, or i don’t know what to think, OR i don’t know how to put my thoughts into words.

Who knows if it’s all because my email id is fuzzylena! But i have this feeling that there is some kind of link, and it’s all thanks to my choice in this cute-sounding (at least to a 9 yr old me!) name that has apparently made me identify with the fuzzy part of me, and portray myself as a fuzzy person. She said different pple prob have different interpretations of fuzzy (really?), so everyone prob sees me according to their own interpretation as to what fuzzy means.

What DOES fuzzy mean anyway? Oh yeah… now i rem, i prob thought the word was cute because it reminded me of those fuzzy-wuzzy hairy ball thingy that used to be quite popular years ago. I also knew there was the term fuzzy logic, which i didn’t quite get at that time, and still don’t get till today. Guess fuzzy also connotes unclear, distorted, blur? Geez… now why didn’t i use some other email name, like queenlena, or lovegoddess…

Well, now i have at least one reason that explains why part of my life and my actions are fuzzed-up, guess i need to undo the fuzz. And i was groaning in front of her, about all the internet admin i would have to do. She assured me that this shouldn’t be a reason to get stressed, and i prob just need to do it step by step which is true.

The other question is, if not fuzzylena, then what? She said if i just take some time to meditate on it, i will think of something. Hmm… guess i’ll send out a call to the universe for some divine inspiration for a new email id.

Health is another thing that i’m going to manifest for. While i’m the healthiest one in the family right now (both little boy and Mr Gua Gua down with cough, the latter in a pretty bad state), i don’t feel that great either. My energy level is at an all-time low, despite 8-10 hours of sleep every night, and my pale complexion with dark eyebags are staring back at me with a frown everytime i look in a mirror. Wonder if i should see a doc or something… hmm, maybe will try EFT first and see how it goes.

Career-wise, things continue to look interesting. My colleague is helping me to advocate for acceptance of EFT, and the ED seems to be considering it. Though frankly, i’m not sure if i care anymore. I believe in synergy of working in groups, yet, organisations have their disadvantages, with everyone having their own views, and politicking. Will just keep an open mind and see where the universe takes me to!

The Disney trip was absolutely magic!

Sure there were the downs. Going on holiday as a mother, is different from going on a holiday as a single person, and that IS an understatement. Having to cope with the tantrums, making sure that little boy takes his meals (he took more junk food in these 4 days than he does in a month!), etc does take a lot of energy out of me, and there were times when i felt this holiday was more pain than pleasure.

Yet, the happy moments totally outweighed the bleah moments, and the joys of motherhood can also be truly felt on a Disney trip. Watching little boy’s happiness and excitement doubled my own happiness and excitement. It was pure bliss to see him immersed in the Disney magic, especially the look of star-struck awe on his face when he met Mickey Mouse in person. It still makes me laugh when i think of him running after Mickey Mouse and gang when the latter went on a “3-min break”. Little boy tried to follow them into the crew staff area, and was of cos stopped by Mr Gua Gua. Later when they reappeared, little boy followed them with his mouth wide open, absolutely stunned by the close proximity he had with his TV idols whom he watched almost every day. I managed to snap a couple of shots of his sheer joy, and that alone is worth their weight in gold, which means every cent spent on this trip was worth it.

Well, we did spent a little more than planned for, which is typical for us la. HK food can be as cheap as food court prices in SIngapore, but it’s usually priced much more than that. On our first night in HK Disneyland, as little boy insisted on eating porridge, and you would think that in HK, you can find congee anywhere, but nope, we were told that we could only find it back in the hotel which is 10 min shuttle bus ride from Disneyland, which means plus waiting/walking time, dinner would take place half an hour later at least. It was already past dinner time, little boy was announcing that he was hungry, and being typically very anxious about little boy’s nourishment, I was hoping we would find an eatery in Disneyland that served congee. We took a last shot at this fancy Chinese restaurant, and as luck would have it, it served congee. So we ended up having a really lavish meal that cost abt $100, far more than our usual dinner fare. Well, we did promise ourselves that we would have nice meals on this trip…so that was one thing checked!

At least Mr Gua Gua and i ate rather well on this trip. Little boy was not too keen on eating, which i guess was expected. Who would wanna eat when you could be meeting Mickey Mouse and gang and experiencing all kinds of exciting things right? Still, he had to eat when he was hungry, and he either asked for porridge or bread. Unfortunately he was not very adventurous in trying out the food we ordered, and i had no choice but to let him snack on crackers and even icecream, cake and marshmallows. It was consoling to be reminded by Mr Gua Gua that it’s ok to let him starve for a few days; he would be fattened up when back in Singapore again, which is true!

Eating aside, little boy was relatively coorporative and not too bad a traveller. Sure, he was climbing up and down the chairs in the plane, which i allowed cos no toddler can sit in a little space for 3 hours. Otherwise, he was pretty cheerful and hardly fussed. He also did his lying on the floor thing, throughout the trip, whenever we rushed him along and didn’t allow him to go about his business by himself. Independence is a BIG priority for him these days. I have learnt to use it to my advantage, by pretending i was going to do something that i want him to do, and he would immediately respond by wanting to do it as well. It works about 70% of the time, and i sure hope he would not wise up to it too soon.

So during those moments of fussing and throwing of tantrums, EFT came to the rescue. If not for EFT, i think we would have a much more fussy and grouchy toddler on our hands, and i would also be a much angrier and more volatile mum. Thanks to a lot of tapping, both little boy and i stayed in good spirits for most of the trip.

Of cos, i also need to credit it to the excellent service in Disneyland. Best service i have ever encountered in any tourist attraction, including Disneylands in US and Paris. The staff looked genuinely happy, and some went out of their way to make sure we are being well taken care of. On the 2nd night in Disneyland, little boy had a huge tantrum when we carried him out of the car so that another girl could have her turn. Even when we put him back, he was inconsolable. It was near closing time, and a crew member who could have just gone home, stopped by to give little boy Disney stickers. These stickers are handed out all day long, but they definitely don’t give out the whole lot, and this kind guy cheerfully passed out the stickers to little boy, one by one, and little boy eventually stopped fussing when he received the last one. He even said thank you to him, and after that, he was back to his happy self again.

That and other little moments are what makes me fall in love with Disney magic, cos it really helps me to believe in this world where people are good-hearted and noble, where good resides over evil, and where once you wish upon a star, dreams really do come true…

No matter how commercial some pple think Disney may have become, i remain in gratitude that Disney still retains such a powerful influence on the young ones today. Already, the media is showing more and more adult-oriented children’s shows that are more colourful in language, portraying violence on different levels, and displaying sardonic humour. Children these days doesn’t seem so innocent anymore, with their adult language, world-weary manner. While Disney is not perfect either - some do criticise it for its gender bias (which is evolving too, with cartoon movies like Mulan) and distorted portrayals of romance, etc - there are wonderful messages that it sends to the younger generation too. Messages like, goodness pays, and love is the most powerful force in the world. One of the most popular attractions is the “It’s a small world” ride, and isn’t it true, that when we look beyond our cultural differences, it is a small world after all.

Going on this trip is like taking a trip down memory lane, cos it brings back all those fond memories of watching the old Disney cartoons. The really old ones, like Sleeping Beauty and Cinderella, which most of the children now prob have not watched before. I also caught this old-fashioned 70’s Disney mini cartoon on TV which is narrated by song with a melody and style  that put me into this lovely dreamy mood, and it’s a beautiful story about a hat that fell in love with another hat, went on a journey and got reunited with her. As I told Mr Gua Gua and he agreed, they just don’t make cartoons like this anymore.

What’s the big deal, one might say. Well, it’s hard to put it into words… watching such cartoons is like watching the leaves fall from a tree, or the clouds float in the sky. It’s soothing for the soul, and i believe children who grow up on Disney magic are those that continue to believe in goodness, and who bring goodness to this world.

So definitely, if TV is a must for little boy, then let it be Disney TV, and not the modern ones either but those old ones. Mr Gua Gua are going to say that they are boring, but i think the slow pace is what made me like it all the more. In fact i had trouble understanding most of the TV programs at a young age, but I was ok with the Disney cartoons. Maybe cos of the extensive use of music, and a lot of nature-based scenes. For a city girl like myself, perhaps it’s cos of Disney cartoons (and Enid Blyton’s books) that kept me very much connected to nature.

Well, this entry is more about my reflections of the trip rather than the trip itself. A picture is worth a thousand words, so when i find the time, i’ll just upload the pics onto this blog and/or little boy’s online photoalbum, and then you will see what i mean when i said that we had a really gd time there.

In fact, we had such a great time that Mr Gua Gua convinced me into spending another extra $60 to get the annual pass which gives us unlimited access to HK Disneyland till next July. In other words, we will be back… again and again!

Here’s the lyrics of the song… i just realised that it teaches the art of manifestation! It’s all abt putting your heart into the dream…

When You Wish Upon A StarMusic by Leigh Harline / Lyrics by Ned Washington
Performed by Jiminy Cricket (Cliff Edwards)

When you wish upon a star
Makes no difference who you are
Anything your heart desires
Will come to you

If your heart is in your dream
No request is too extreme
When you wish upon a star
As dreamers do

Fate is kind
She brings to those who love
The sweet fulfillment of
Their secret longing

Like a bolt out of the blue
Fate steps in and sees you through
When you wish upon a star
Your dreams come true

I’m just riding on a wave of EFT excitement at the moment cos i’m learning so many new and fascinating things from the DVDs. I just finished the one on Allergy Antidotes in the Specialties II series, and i am definitely going to do a workshop on it cos it seems like allergies are so prevalent in this time and age, with overpopulation, environmental pollution, increase in GMO foods, etc. Apparently, allergies or substance sensitivities are the cause of many of our emotional and physical symptoms, and most of us aren’t aware of it. Only 2% of allergies/substance sensitivities lead to an immediate, noticeable reaction, whereas 98% of them have some adverse effect on the body that is largely unnoticeable, and accumulates over time till some kind of reaction shows up. Those who may have substance sensitivities could have symptoms or conditions that include the following:

• permanent puffy eyebags (that includes me!)
• sinuses
• chronic symptoms e.g. headaches, coughing, itchy eyes
• weight gain, and difficulty in losing weight
• depression
• panic attacks
• autism
• ADHD/ADD
• asthma
• rashes
• etc…

Right now i don’t have enough content to do the background explanation of allergies and how it affects pple, so i might need to do some research on that, but my idea is that most pple aren’t that interested in that kind of thing anyway. So the bulk of the workshop would be on using muscle testing to diagnose the substances we are sensitive to, and using EFT to neutralise that. It’s amazing, cos in the early days of EFT, energy toxins (which are the same as things that we are allergic to) are one of the factors that prevent success with EFT, and it was once thought that energy toxins cannot be treated, only avoided. So for pple whose energy toxins include wheat, they have to stay on a wheat-free diet for the rest of the life. Now, the simple solution is to just treat it with EFT, and it works!

When i heard Sandi, the trainer (can’t spell her last name) explain that there are many pple who go through life suffering from conditions that have unexplainable causes and when they finally find out that it’s due to a certain substance in their life, they feel such a huge sense of relief from regaining some kind of control over the condition, even if it was to avoid that particular substance. Of cos, treating it with EFT so that they don’t have to avoid it is a real bonus, and for those who suffer very badly from their allergies/substance sensitivities, this can be a lifesaver. This made me decide that i should conduct this workshop at least once, in case there IS a group of pple out there in Singapore who are allergies sufferers and haven’t benefitted properly from conventional treatment. I don’t know if it’s going to be a lifesaver for the participants, but it will definitely be an eye-opening and fun experience.

My idea (and it’s ok if anyone out there copies it cos it’s hardly that original and the more pple out there who do this kind of work, the better) is that i will give a brief intro on allergies, which will prob be common knowledge and will already be covered in the publicity flyer. This will be followed by demos on pple who know their allergies and the symptoms they get, and i will do both muscle testing to show the effect of the substance on their energy system, and EFT to show the improvement in the condition. Hopefully i will get props to better demonstrate the effects… most likely, some sugary dessert, coffee and cell phones.

After which, i will teach participants to do proper muscle testing, and this MAY require some rehearsing on my part cos from experience, not everyone can do muscle testing properly. It’s impt to stay open-minded and not have any attachment to the results. Also, clear instructions must be given by the tester e.g. keep the arm level, do NOT push upwards, just resist lightly, and once you feel your arm unable to resist then let it go down all the way. I just tried muscle testing with Mr Gua Gua this evening and the competitive streak in him just made him push against my fingers so that i couldn’t really tell if it was really strong or weak. In any case, we did get some results for each other and i even had Mr Gua Gua muscle test me on behalf of little boy, so all of us got cleared on certain substance sensitivities today!

Well, the experiential part would be the highlight of the workshop. My intention is to get participants to pair up, and i will hand each pair a set of words that are common allergens. I have typed it out this afternoon and will do the photocopying and cutting soon. Basically, as those who are familiar with Dr Emoto’s work will know, the written word contains vibrations that correlate with the meaning of the word, and this applies to any language. Simply by putting the word of the substance against the body, the body will tune into the energy of that substance and respond accordingly.

For those of you who know muscle testing, try it with a partner! Try Love/Hate, Yes/No, and once you see the effect of these words on your body, you can try common allergens like wheat, egg, soy, dust, etc. Little boy’s magnetic drawing pad came in handy this evening, and apparently, Mr Gua Gua’s funny face drawing didn’t have a very gd effect on his own energy either. Hmmm….

Once all the pairs have gotten through the words i have provided them with - perhaps i will instruct them to bring their medications and other substances they want to test, so they can try them out during this process as well - they would have gotten a list of substances they have been tested to be sensitive towards. I’m guessing some of the results would be surprising to them, especially since i now know that we are commonly addicted to the very same stuff we are allergic to, so it’s probable that participants would say things like, i eat this almost every day!

Well, the gd thing abt this workshop is, it doesn’t mean participants now need to sacrifice the things we love, cos i will simply ask everyone to tap as a group on their own substance sensitivities. I still need to work this part out a lil more cos i think it would take too much time if we break into pairs again and confirm that all the substance sensitivities have been neutralised. Maybe i’ll just do a few more demos on pple to show that some of their substance sensitivities have been neutralised, and ask everyone to go home to finish their EFT.

Frankly, this is a very simple workshop that most pple can do at home. The only thing is you need to find a willing partner to do muscle testing with you, and some pple may have trouble with that. At least the workshop will provide a conducive environment for the muscle testing AND EFTing, and you may gain some friends in the meantime. I’m fortunate that Mr Gua Gua was willing to “play” the game with me (even though he was mock laughing throughout and found the whole thing bizarre) but he got bored after 15 min, and we have tested perhaps 7-9 substances on each other and little boy. With the workshop, i will prob give about 40 min for the pair work and they will quickly go through all the words i provide them, and their own stuff if they have time for it, so this is a rather effective method of diagnosing your own substance sensitivities and treating it. I’m not sure about the cost of more conventional allergies diagnosis and treatments, but i bet it’s more costly in both time and money for sure!

Anyway, as i said before, i don’t know what would be the demand for this be like, but i’m convinced by Sandi that this can potentially save lives, and there might be a real need out there. I don’t want to be Jack of all trades, so i may not conduct EFT workshops on every single issue out there, unless i truly enjoy the experience. It is possible that my EFT for allergies workshop can start a new wave, and preceding this, other pple will conduct similar workshops, and i can continue or discontinue this out of my own preference, and know that the demand will be met by other pple.

In fact, i’m meeting my homeopathy friend to lend him the DVD and discuss my idea with him. Somehow, i feel this will be very impt for him in his work, because he is already advising pple in nutrition, and while he may be familiar with the work of muscle testing or intuitive diagnosis, EFT for energy toxins might be something new. Perhaps he can expand on this work and give his own workshops in future, who knows!

Geez, i seem to be constantly bursting with new ideas these days… sure hope that my centre provides me with the opportunities to manifest them. Sometimes it’s frustrating to feel like i need to wait for the world to catch up with me… but then again, i remind myself, that everything happens at the right place at the right time, and i’m pretty sure that once the teacher is ready (me!), the students will appear, and so would the right environment!