Bee boh….

August 13, 2013 at 6:50 pm | Posted in All about little girl, The journey within | Leave a comment

…. Menses came today. Sigh! It was supposed to come yesterday, and despite the negative pregnancy test, I hoped that it was just a false negative. Unfortunately, it turned out accurate after all… 😦

Sigh, I guess the conditions are not right for little girl yet. Maybe she knows that her papa has yet to confirm a new job, financial situation not stable, so she doesn’t want to come, in case Mr Gua Gua feels stressed about not being able to provide for little girl.

BUT… Mr Gua Gua just received 2 job offers today. TWO! So at least his job is more or less settled, now just need to take care of his health. He has been falling sick so frequently recently, not sure if it’s a good or bad sign, cos he just went to Dr F to tiao his body, so maybe it’s detoxing symptoms. Anyway, he also knows that he needs to take care of his health. Otherwise how can little girl come?!?

I was feeling so sian today that I decided to browse the Zhu Sheng Niang Niang thread in the SMH forum. Wah, this tolberone forumer seems so skilled in giving advice that after reading so many of her posts, I feel compelled to come back to my Buddhist roots. Reflecting on myself, it seems like I really strayed very far in this past year. Not only did I stop meditating, chanting, etc, I even feel bored when praying at temple, started eating beef (but only once in a blue moon), and the worst is, I have been killing ants that crawl onto my body without blinking an eye. Tsk tsk… thinking about it makes me feel very regretful. And I have become so much less compassionate these days too. Maybe I need to start cultivating again before little girl would want to come. Especially if she is really going to be an emanation for Green Tara, as what Mr Gua Gua insists that she would be.

To be honest, I have really become very lazy in doing self cultivation, compared to the past when I was super onz. Even though tolberone has given very straightforward advice to do chanting and/or copy Medicine Buddha sutra so as to accumulate merits and create the conditions to conceive a child, and I realise that it’s probably good advice, I still feel lazy about doing it. Sigh… not sure why either. I used to be so diligent in all kinds of practice, be it meditating, chanting, prostrating, etc, and now I just don’t feel like doing it.

For now, i’m just listening to Medicine Buddha mantras on Youtube. Yeah, I know that that’s really the most basic, but hopefully listening to it will gradually help me to become more motivated in doing more. Not only for conceiving little girl but during pregnancy as well. I believe that little boy is now so intelligent and relatively well-behaved is cos I chanted om mani padme hung rather diligently when I was pregnant with him, and I attended the mani retreat too. So hopefully by the time little girl comes, I will find the motivation to do some kind of spiritual practice as well.

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ABC cabinet done

August 4, 2013 at 11:06 pm | Posted in Rantings and ravings | Leave a comment

I have been busy the past few days making little girl’s ABC cabinet. I’m too lazy to post pictures here (who’s gonna see?) but I can say that i’m pretty pleased with the result. Tried playing ABC storytelling with little boy on Sat, and he had fun with it for about 20 min before he decided to do something else. Guess that’s a small success. Hopefully little girl will enjoy the ABC cabinet a lot more. Now it’s more for putting names to pictures. Probably later on, I will think about how to add words so that little girl will learn reading too. Apparently some mummies start their babies on flash cards (pics + words) when they are only a few months old. So kiasu! But I guess if I want little girl to be an early and avid book reader, I might have to consider going down that path too. Anyway, now it’s still early. I guess when I test positive for pregnancy, I can start doing more research on baby “education”.

I have also been busy doing research for the upcoming trip to HK with mum and sis. The highlights of the trip for me would be the super highly recommended Tim Ho Wan (IIRC), the cheapest Michelin-rated dim sum restaurant in HK, the Take Out Comedy, the House of Dancing Water at Macau and Sai Kung, which has been called Venice of HK and supposedly have very nice seafood. Yums! My most “dreaded” destination would be the 10 000 Buddhas, which consists of 431 steps up a hill. Oh no… since I haven’t exercised forever, I have no idea how am I going to last the journey without showing obvious physical strain. Hopefully I will outlast Mummy, even though she goes for her morning exercise very regularly (but very non-strenuous kind), otherwise, will definitely get suaned by her. Arghhh…. will just cross my fingers that it’s going to be an enjoyable trip.

8 more days to knowing whether little girl is here yet. :/

 

 

DIY Moby Wrap/Hugabub

July 29, 2013 at 11:21 pm | Posted in Rantings and ravings | Leave a comment

Oh my gawd!~

http://monkeysewmonkeydo.blogspot.sg/2010/03/make-your-own-moby-wrap-tutorial.html

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