Fuzzy defined

July 26, 2008 at 5:35 pm | Posted in Rantings and ravings | Leave a comment

From wikipedia:

Fuzzy concepts play a role in the creative process of forming new concepts to understand something. In the most primitive sense, this can be observed in infants who, through practical experience, learn to identify, discriminate and generalise the correct application of a concept.

However, fuzzy concepts may also occur in scientific, journalistic and scholarly activity, when a thinker is in the process of clarifying and defining a newly emerging concept which is based on distinctions which, for one reason or another, cannot (yet) be more exactly specified.

It could be argued that some concepts (e.g. “love” or “God”) are inherently or intrinsically fuzzy concepts, to the extent that their meaning cannot be completely and exactly specified with logical operators or objective terms, and can have multiple interpretations, which may be partly subjective only. It may also be possible to specify one personal meaning for the concept, without however placing restrictions on a different use of the concept in other contexts (as when, for example, one says “this is what I mean by X” in contrast to other possible meanings).

Fuzzy concepts can be used deliberately to create ambiguity and vagueness, as an evasive tactic, or to mediate what is otherwise a contradiction of terms. This could be a failure or refusal to be more precise, but also could be a prologue to a more exact formulation of a concept.

Maybe fuzzy ain’t too bad a adjective after all… after all, it is anti-specific, and i AM an evolving person! Will do more meditating on this…

What’s in a name

July 25, 2008 at 11:31 am | Posted in Manifestations, Rantings and ravings | 7 Comments

I have been meeting interesting pple these days thanks to the homeopath friend i met through hypnotherapy class. One of them is a lady whom i chatted with for over an hour yesterday. She’s a really fascinating woman, and she shared with me about her work, the challenges she has faced in her life, the people she encountered as clients and in workshops. It was very nice to listen to her cos she was so open and warm and humourous, so i just listened, without any expectations or pressure to respond. Maybe it’s cos i was so engaged in her sharing, that she shared so much too… who knows.

Anyway, she’s into the healing field as well, and does workshops to help people find themselves and their life purpose. She’s such a sincere and inspiring speaker that i can see myself joining her workshop one day when the conditions are right. We came to talk about my issue of abundance, or rather, scarcity, and she asked me a few questions which i couldn’t really come up with any reply for.

We were not having a coaching session, but i sensed that she wanted to help me (and indeed, later she told me she was). We didn’t get anywhere, except for some new-agey intellectual kinda advice, which wasn’t a problem with me cos as i said, it wasn’t a coaching session and i was just enjoying her personal sharing.

Eventually, i asked her to send me info about her workshop and wrote down my email for her. When she saw my email, she did a double take and asked me how come my email id is fuzzylena. I laughed cos i knew where she was coming from, and i told her i just had this from a very young age and i’m not even sure why i chose this name. She asked me if i knew that fuzzy doesn’t have very postive connotations. Again, i laughed, even though she was being serious.

She was like, no wonder i feel that during all this, you are here but not here. I was both bemused and curious at the same time. Yes, i believed in numerology and importance of your name and all, but i never thought that an email would have any significance on the person. At the same time, there was a part of me that was slapping her head and saying, geez…i shld have known better. After all, with the advent of Internet, email id has become almost as impt as your personal name, and reflects your identity just as much as your real name. So all this while, i have been portraying myself as a fuzzy person… whatever that is!

I guess after the hilarity of this discovery (she felt that THIS was the breakthrough she was hoping me to get), i am rather stunned. In fact, i was quite speechless and didn’t know what to say. Suddenly, all the pieces of my life came together. Ok… at least all the FUZZY pieces. These were the scenes that flashed through my mind. The times when i was seemingly multi-tasking and doing 5 things at one time, in a totally haphazard manner, until i would forget what it is i was supposed to do next, and before i even get there, i get distracted and do something else instead. This happens most when i’m doing office admin and when i’m in the kitchen (which explains why i’m not very gd in office admin, and the kitchen often looks like a mess). There are also those other times when my mind goes blank in a social situation, not cos of anxiety, but simply cos i either didn’t know what was going on, or i don’t know what to think, OR i don’t know how to put my thoughts into words.

Who knows if it’s all because my email id is fuzzylena! But i have this feeling that there is some kind of link, and it’s all thanks to my choice in this cute-sounding (at least to a 9 yr old me!) name that has apparently made me identify with the fuzzy part of me, and portray myself as a fuzzy person. She said different pple prob have different interpretations of fuzzy (really?), so everyone prob sees me according to their own interpretation as to what fuzzy means.

What DOES fuzzy mean anyway? Oh yeah… now i rem, i prob thought the word was cute because it reminded me of those fuzzy-wuzzy hairy ball thingy that used to be quite popular years ago. I also knew there was the term fuzzy logic, which i didn’t quite get at that time, and still don’t get till today. Guess fuzzy also connotes unclear, distorted, blur? Geez… now why didn’t i use some other email name, like queenlena, or lovegoddess… 😛

Well, now i have at least one reason that explains why part of my life and my actions are fuzzed-up, guess i need to undo the fuzz. And i was groaning in front of her, about all the internet admin i would have to do. She assured me that this shouldn’t be a reason to get stressed, and i prob just need to do it step by step which is true.

The other question is, if not fuzzylena, then what? She said if i just take some time to meditate on it, i will think of something. Hmm… guess i’ll send out a call to the universe for some divine inspiration for a new email id.

Health is another thing that i’m going to manifest for. While i’m the healthiest one in the family right now (both little boy and Mr Gua Gua down with cough, the latter in a pretty bad state), i don’t feel that great either. My energy level is at an all-time low, despite 8-10 hours of sleep every night, and my pale complexion with dark eyebags are staring back at me with a frown everytime i look in a mirror. Wonder if i should see a doc or something… hmm, maybe will try EFT first and see how it goes.

Career-wise, things continue to look interesting. My colleague is helping me to advocate for acceptance of EFT, and the ED seems to be considering it. Though frankly, i’m not sure if i care anymore. I believe in synergy of working in groups, yet, organisations have their disadvantages, with everyone having their own views, and politicking. Will just keep an open mind and see where the universe takes me to!

Art of listening

July 23, 2008 at 5:51 pm | Posted in Pearls of wisdom | 1 Comment

“Listening is an art not easily come by, but in it there is beauty and great understanding. We listen with the various depths of our being, but our listening is always with a preconception or from a particular point of view.

We do not listen simply; there is always the intervening screen of our own thoughts, conclusions, and prejudices. To listen there must be an inward quietness, a freedom from the strain of acquiring, a relaxed attention.

This alert yet passive state is able to hear what is beyond the verbal conclusion. Words confuse; they are only the outward means of communication; but to commune beyond the noise of words, there must be in listening, an alert passivity.

Those who love may listen, but it is extremely rare to find a listener. Most of us are after results, achieving goals; we are forever overcoming and conquering, and so there is no listening. It is only in listening that one hears the song of the words.     

~Jiddu Krishnamurti

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