Major release

September 7, 2009 at 12:29 am | Posted in The Journey by Brandon Bays, The journey within, The Miracles | Leave a comment

I just realised that sounds like a movie…. but of cos, it’s in the healing context – as usual.

Just an update about the session with that EFT practitioner I went to. I was amazed by her dousing skills… she diagnosed a whole lot of stuff, most of which I resonate with, but then she also told me a few things which are not directly related to me. Overall, i left her session feeling a little doubtful. I checked with my pendulum and got a no answer about going back to her.

One thing I did get was to use dousing in my self-healing session. I am now reading Attract Money Now by Joe Vitale which a dear friend sent to me (you can download it for free at www.attractmoneynow.com). Honestly, the content is not really new, but after major emotional clearing last night and during today’s Journey process with SH, for the first time, I was reading a book and actually seriously reflecting upon it. In fact, since it was in electronic version, i opened up a Word document to respond to the questions on limiting beliefs.

According to Joe Vitale, the most common belief is that money is evil. Sure i know that, but i never thought i had that belief. I kinda thought i love money! So imagine my surprise when i did pendulum dousing and got a positive answer to having this belief within me. Talk about being an unconscious belief… it’s totally out of my awareness!

So i did EFT on it…and since i don’t have any specific memories that created this belief, i did a general round of it e.g. “Even though i believe money is the root of all evil…” Just about 2 min of it, and i did pendulum dousing again. Now i *don’t* have the belief that money is bad. “Huh, that quick meh?” As much as i love EFT, even this one-minute wonder was a little too unexpected for me to accept. So i tested it by dousing on “Did I have this belief that money is bad 20 min ago (before I did EFT)”. Answer: Yes. “Do I have this belief that money is bad now.” Answer: No.

Cool!

Today during the Journey process, i uncovered a major issue which i didn’t even realise bothered me so much. A memory about my grandmother came up, which left me feeling really guilty. Huge floodgates… there was a heap of tissues beside me by the time i was done. Thank goodness SH was so skilful with me… i wonder if she guessed that i needed her to help me with my process cos she was hanging around and not engaged with anyone else. My Journey swap partner had to leave early, and then she told me she would do mine. And she was so good. I almost didn’t want to leave the house today cos i was feeling so lousy, but my pendulum was giving me a super strong yes to going for the swap session. Whatmore, it was just 10 min away from my house. 

Turns out that this was the most intense Journey process for me yet. I was literally a flowing tap. When i got home, i immediately took a nap and when i woke up, i was feeling so soft on the inside, like i have just survived a drowning and nothing in this world really mattered except that i was alive.

After i was done with clearing the belief that money is evil, my grandmother’s face came up again and i decided to check with my pendulum if i still had guilt towards my grandmother. “Yes”.

I did EFT and ho’oponopono. Amazingly, tears came up again and the tissues started piling up. Finally, i told my grandmother a few things, but it didn’t feel sufficient so I wrote it down on my Word doc.

When i finished typing, again the tears came. This reinforced for me that when it comes to forgiveness work, it can’t just be done mentally. Best to be verbalised, or else, even writing/typing would bring it into the physical realm and make the work more substantial.

At the end of it all, i saw my grandmother’s face being at peace and her eyes shone with so much love for me that i cried again but in a good way. I checked with my pendulum if the words I wrote actually got conveyed to my grandmother’s soul. “Yes”. Is she proud of me? “Yes” Is she at peace? “Yes” Is my guilt cleared? “Yes” (the last question was already answered in my heart, but i just needed to double confirm).

Despite the puffy eyes, i’m feeling remarkably at peace now, and kinda amazed by how that was kept within me for such a long time. Thank goodness it’s cleared out. Thank you universe!

Btw, The Journey Intensive is coming back, and will be on 19 and 20 September. It’s truly an amazing healing process… extremely simple to use for others and very effective in clearing out old stuff. I highly recommend to anyone who is ready for inner work!

Here’s the flyer that is going out…(just the content since i couldn’t paste the whole thing here)

“I never thought I was good enough for anything. The Journey removed limiting beliefs and unlocked doors to help me realise dreams, have fulfilling relationships and lead a fulfilling life. The Journey did no less than…change my life!”
Business Owner, 25 years old, Signapore

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The Journey is a practical and effective tool that addresses the root cause to any life issues and clears them out completely.

The Journey empowers you to take charge of every area in your life and live it to the fullest potential.

The Journey answers your deepest longings to uncover your own greatness and infinite potential that lies within.

The Journey Intensive Singapore
19th & 20th Sept 09

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Tapping into the scientifically proven basis of cellular healing, The Journey:

  • Guides you in a step by step process to uncover specific cell memories that is the root cause if any long-standing difficulty, fear or blockage.
  • Guides you to resolve and clear these cell memories completely.

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Here’s a really great interview with Brandon Bays, founder of The Journey that was on Cosmic Lighthouse magazine prior to the Journey Intensive 2008 -w orth checking out: http://www.cosmiclighthouse.com/may08/articles/thejourney

I’ll be helping out on the first day…if you are there and you see me, come and say hi. 🙂

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The journey of self healing

June 27, 2009 at 1:19 am | Posted in The Journey by Brandon Bays, The journey within, The Miracles | Leave a comment

I used to be quite hard-hearted. In fact, there used to be this online feedback quiz called Nohari window (opposite of Johari window) where your friends can choose a list of NEGATIVE traits that they feel describe you. I loved this quiz, cos how often is it that you get such honest feedback to your face rite? (though obviously very much fewer friends responded on this one than the Johari window… and to me, those are the REAL friends).

One very close friend descibed me as callous. I was shocked, and i went to look up the word “callous” to make sure it means what i think it means, something akin to heartless. Yup, i was right.

But i was more shocked (in a gd way… ) by my friend’s honesty than the feedback itself cos for a period of time, during sad movies when everyone is crying, i will just be perking up my ears and looking out at the corner of my eyes, kaypoh (nosy) to find out how many pple are crying.

Then after practising Buddhism for some time, i started to tear at movies too, and i was like, “Yeh… i’m normal, i can cry!”

Guess what? I’m an expert now, and have entered the advanced phase of bringing the tears up all by itself.

I mean that in no sarcastic way. After going through The Journey and experiencing the Emotional Journey a no. of times, where you basically allow yourself to tune into the emotions and be brought in deeper and deeper, i have been practising this skill in my own self-healing sessions.

While i don’t exactly force myself to cry (that’s just crazy!), i do tune into significant thoughts and memories and allow myself to sink in fully… and out of nowhere, the tears would rise up, and most of the time, it’s intense. Who would have thought there was so much hidden deep within me. To me, when i experience these unexpected outflow of tears, it’s really like striking lottery. After all, there are pple who spend thousands of dollars in therapy, digging for those buried gunk, cry it all out, and feel better. I can do it FOC.

So don’t think i’m weird if i say that i actually feel a sense of satisfaction during these self-healing sessions. For a “callous” person like me, i have definitely come a long way, such that i can do therapy on myself.

I have learnt to respect the value of tears. After seeing so many clients cry, and experiencing it myself, i have learnt that tears are precious healing fluids, that cleanse the body and soul. When my clients cry and they reach for the tissue to wipe their tears away, i make sure they know that they don’t need to do that and i’m perfectly fine with tapping on their tear-streaming cheeks. Of cos, some of them are still thoughtful enough to wipe them away… but i truly truly love and respect the clients who are able to just allow the tears to flow in an unabashed way. Tears are magic… they are like rain that washes away the grime that has been hidden in the depths of our being for way too long.

I can probably gush more about this (pun intended :P), but i just want to write a little about an interesting healing session i had this morning. There was a blanket of heaviness over my head and heart, and i tapped on that as i tuned into sensations, feelings and thoughts that came into my consciousness. At one point, i had this image of a little girl crouching down at the roadside. Her hair covered her face, and i had the feeling that she’s not me, and her eyes were big and pretty.

I knew to be a “good” client, and did not analyse or doubt this image, and i tapped on the thoughts of not knowing what it means or where it came from. There was also a slight sense of unease, cos it felt a little eerie to me, and i tapped on that as well. As i tapped, i saw this lost little girl growing up and finally becoming a lovely woman a few years older than me. She didn’t look so lost anymore, and more aware of her surroundings. She thanked me for helping her to come back to the present moment, and told me she was going home. That was when the image started to fade.

After that, the heaviness in my heart was gone, leaving perhaps just a tiny nudge behind.

I have no idea who the lady was. A past life me? A me in a different dimension? A spirit attachment? Whatever it was, i was glad it happened the way it did.

After that, i decided to tap on the myopia in my left eye. I have been reading this book “Movement for Self Healing” by Meir Schneider, who was born blind and through massage and physical movement, cured himself. He then started treating other pple for various ailments such as polio, paralysis, progressive muscle dystrophy, etc.

This book inspired me to heal my own physical issues as well, which thankfully, is really only myopia as far as i know. In the midst of tapping, i had a flash of idea, to get a facial mask and cut a hole in it to make an eye patch, so i could use my myopic left eye without contact lens and train up the muscles to see normally again.

This was the interesting part. Normally, i wld hesitate about wearing the eye patch outside. Even if i were to do so, it wld be done in a very self-conscious manner cos that’s normally how i wld be. Even as a teenager, i hated being so tall cos that meant i usually attracted a lot of attention, and unless i was in an especially confident mood, i tried to be as unobtrusive as possible.

But today i wore my eye patch outside without even thinking much about it. Mr Gua Gua was aghast. “What would pple think? You look so weird!” I just smirked at him as i was leaving the house, finding his reaction both funny and slightly annoying.

It was an interesting experience wearing my eye patch outside. Pple did look at me. The young ones stared. And i felt very cool about it. Of cos it took a little getitng used to, and i now have a little more empathy for people who are handicapped or look different in some way.  But really, after the first 5 min, the curious looks and stares are no longer a big deal.

When i reached office, once again i was a little surprised by how cool i was walking in. Just less than half a year ago, i wld be nervous just cos i was wearing a dressy outfit to office and was worried about the attention i wld get cos of that. Yet, here i was wearing a facial mask with a hole over my eyes, and the moment my colleagues saw me, they started laughing and asking questions. I just laughed along and answered them.

Well, i am extremely pleased about it all. Finally, i can say bye to self-consciousness! 🙂

I even wore my eye patch to the chanting session at HS’s place today. Except for HS and someone I knew, no one else asked, and i didn’t bother to explain. Ohhh… today’s chanting sesson was GREAT! The energy was so good, and i could feel a strong vibration in my heart as i chanted om mani padme hung. Here was also when i realised how much i have grown in the past few months. There wasn’t the usual sense of competition/comparison feelings in me… thoughts of “oh, i’m so good at this” and “who’s chanting better than me” were so much reduced. And when they DID arise, i was aware, and most importantly, my response to it was not of judgment, but more of understanding and acceptance. I still have ego, and it’s ok. Just means i have more to work on that’s all.

After the 1 hour chanting, there was about 10 min of meditation, and i was simply blissing out in my own energy. We were asked about our intentions for the session at the start, and mine was to enjoy the energy. I meant energy of the group. But during the meditation, i was actually enjoying MY own energy which i can say was a first for me.

From a corner of my consciousness came a voice, “Aren’t you glad to be you?”

I have never been asked that before. But now that this voice did ask, i gratefully replied, “Yes… yes i am glad to be me.” I was feeling so keenly (autosave ofthis entry just happened at exactly 1:11:11 am!!!) my own energy… and isn’t it weird to be even saying this? It’s like saying a fish was feeling what the water felt like, and the fish has been in the water all his life. But before this very moment, i was often comparing myself with others, or being in the past, or being in the future… so this was the first time i am present of my own energy. And it was PURE BLISS.

Now i know who i am. And now i know how come i can do what i do, and what effect i can have on others. It’s true what all those masters say. There is really no need to be anything else, or do anything else, or achieve anything else. Just being ME is enough. In fact, it’s what i came here to do. Just be me. And that alone is very very powerful.

And yes, it applies to everyone too (of cos!).

I used to get so frustrated by that age-old cliche, “Just be yourself”. I even once saw in a quote book, “The worst advice anyone can give is ‘just be yourself'”.

Actually, it’s the best advice anyone can receive. May take some time to put into practice of cos. Some ppl may take a life time.

But it’s so worth the journey. 🙂

(thank you universe!!!)

In the oven

April 6, 2009 at 11:31 pm | Posted in The Journey by Brandon Bays, The Miracles | Leave a comment

My book is finally off to the printers which means i can resume my so-called normal life again i.e. blogging, housework (ahem)….

I’m in a melancholy mood today. Nothing in my life sucks… yet, there is something bugging me.

Well, maybe i shld just get on with my backlog of stuff to blog about. First would be the Journey process i did at Yuki’s house on Sunday. Amazing lady she is, with a beautiful house as gracious as her. I finally met S, whom i was hoping to attend Manifest Abundance with, though unfortunately all the places were taken by the time she called to register. We did a swap together. She had the most amazing process. At least that’s what she said, and judging from the amt of tears she shed, i don’t doubt her the least.

Mine was tears-free, but pretty exceptional. I chose to do the Physical process and surprise surprise, my mentor turned out to be HS, and my space shuttle a lotus flower. We went to my heart, and the memory that popped up was me as a 2 month old baby lying alone with parents fighting in another room.

There were no emotions, except for perhaps a slight sense of loneliness and being uncared for. Then suddenly, the pressure at my throat that i have been getting on and off recently came. It was almost as if there were hands clutching around my throat. The pressure intensified, and i found myself having difficulty breathing.

I got the feeling that there was the presence of a man, a stranger. Prompted by S, i asked HS about his identity. She told me that he’s the man who killed me in a past life.

S asked me why did the man kill me. I don’t know either. So she asked me to ask the man, and i did.

Unexpectedly, i found myself speaking on behalf of the man, with a totally different tone and accent. Words just came out of me, hoarse, regretful, filled with guilt. The story was that i got killed cos i found out that this man was embezzling some company funds and was going to report him to the authorities.

Who knows if it’s true… i only know that the words came out of my mouth from nowhere, and definitely not from me.

S was a real genius in asking the 2 month old me to tell the man how he affected her. Only when the question was asked, did I realise that there was indeed a link between the 1st and 2nd scene. Cos he killed me as a way of silencing me from speaking the truth, the 2 month old me was unable to cry out loud to ask for attention. She felt that expressing herself was an unsafe thing to do.

Other memories came to me in a flash, where i would have so much difficulty telling my mum how miserable i felt in school. All along i assumed that it was because my mum was always glued to the tv, and i felt she was unavailable to me. It’s only then that i realised that this difficulty is due to my own inhibitions in expression, which stemmed from this particular past life of getting killed cos i tried to tell the truth.

Since this session, i have not felt any more pressure at the throat. Just last week, Mr Gua Gua was mock strangling me and in his enthusiasm, he was pressing quite tightly against my throat. Immediately i panicked, and i got seriously pissed at Mr Gua Gua. He knew how upset i was and eventually got serious and apologised (which was a wise thing to do of cos or he wld have gotten kicked out of the room). When i told him about this session, he came to mock strangle me. I coolly let him do it. Far from getting panicky, i was even amused by his efforts to test my tolerance level by strangling me tighter and tighter.

Well, this is not an invite to any of you folks to play mock strangling with me next time you see me. But it would seem like this is an issue that is finally resolved. Hmm, come to think of it, i sent a request to the universe last week for this throat blockage to be healed. Guess it got answered pretty quickly. Thanks universe!

Btw, the message my heart gave me was “Keep on loving, and that is enough for you to be able to do anything you want to do.”

Frankly, this message surprised me a little. Is love really enough? What about hard work, and strategising, and finding the right resources, and…. etc etc etc.

But then, who am i to contradict my heart’s wisdom. If love is all that is needed, than love is what i need to continue practising…

Well, something strange just happened. I felt a huge wave of love come over me. To be honest, i don’t even know if that is love. It felt like a cloud of steam engulfing me, making me feel toasty warm all over.

Don’t ask me where it’s from… i certainly don’t know. But it does feel good. I am trying not to analyse or make a whole bunch of stories about it, the way my super active mind likes to do.

There, feeling it again. It’s like sitting in front of a gentle fire, or feeling the warmth of a furry animal that’s brushing against my arms.

I used to feel so unloved a long time ago that i desperately wished for to own a dog so that there would be a creature to love me wholeheartedly. Things got a lot better since i met Mr Gua Gua. Yet, this warmth is something which i have never felt before. And the wonderful and surprising thing is, this is happening when i’m alone, not thinking of anyone or anything else, and just blogging about love.

I gotta pause after every paragraph cos the warmth on my arms is still there, and… i just want to bathe in it and enjoy the feeling.

They say, love shows up when it is least expected.

This is certainly true. Including self-love…

And that’s really the best kind of love, since we are the only persons we have to live with for an entire lifetime, from birth to death. Why wait till when i get to heaven, or whatever comes after death, to come face to face with Source/the Creator and experience that vast love. If as they say, i am indeed a part of God, i might as well love me starting from now, every day.

I love you!

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