Bee boh….

August 13, 2013 at 6:50 pm | Posted in All about little girl, The journey within | Leave a comment

…. Menses came today. Sigh! It was supposed to come yesterday, and despite the negative pregnancy test, I hoped that it was just a false negative. Unfortunately, it turned out accurate after all… 😦

Sigh, I guess the conditions are not right for little girl yet. Maybe she knows that her papa has yet to confirm a new job, financial situation not stable, so she doesn’t want to come, in case Mr Gua Gua feels stressed about not being able to provide for little girl.

BUT… Mr Gua Gua just received 2 job offers today. TWO! So at least his job is more or less settled, now just need to take care of his health. He has been falling sick so frequently recently, not sure if it’s a good or bad sign, cos he just went to Dr F to tiao his body, so maybe it’s detoxing symptoms. Anyway, he also knows that he needs to take care of his health. Otherwise how can little girl come?!?

I was feeling so sian today that I decided to browse the Zhu Sheng Niang Niang thread in the SMH forum. Wah, this tolberone forumer seems so skilled in giving advice that after reading so many of her posts, I feel compelled to come back to my Buddhist roots. Reflecting on myself, it seems like I really strayed very far in this past year. Not only did I stop meditating, chanting, etc, I even feel bored when praying at temple, started eating beef (but only once in a blue moon), and the worst is, I have been killing ants that crawl onto my body without blinking an eye. Tsk tsk… thinking about it makes me feel very regretful. And I have become so much less compassionate these days too. Maybe I need to start cultivating again before little girl would want to come. Especially if she is really going to be an emanation for Green Tara, as what Mr Gua Gua insists that she would be.

To be honest, I have really become very lazy in doing self cultivation, compared to the past when I was super onz. Even though tolberone has given very straightforward advice to do chanting and/or copy Medicine Buddha sutra so as to accumulate merits and create the conditions to conceive a child, and I realise that it’s probably good advice, I still feel lazy about doing it. Sigh… not sure why either. I used to be so diligent in all kinds of practice, be it meditating, chanting, prostrating, etc, and now I just don’t feel like doing it.

For now, i’m just listening to Medicine Buddha mantras on Youtube. Yeah, I know that that’s really the most basic, but hopefully listening to it will gradually help me to become more motivated in doing more. Not only for conceiving little girl but during pregnancy as well. I believe that little boy is now so intelligent and relatively well-behaved is cos I chanted om mani padme hung rather diligently when I was pregnant with him, and I attended the mani retreat too. So hopefully by the time little girl comes, I will find the motivation to do some kind of spiritual practice as well.

A new chapter

October 31, 2009 at 12:54 am | Posted in The journey within, The Miracles | Leave a comment

Many many new things happening for me in this relatively short period of 3 months.

Leaving my job to start my own practice.

Leaving my marriage to step into independence and reclaiming of personal power.

Leaving to

Today i decluttered my old bedroom at my mum’s place. The maid arrived today, so things were cleared in a jiffy. Thank you universe for sending me manpower!

I also decided to cut my hair much shorter. I have this new theory, that when we have huge changes in our life, the “old DNA” gets moved to the dead cells of the body – nails, outermost layer of our skin, hair. That’s why women cut their hair when they go through breakups or dramatic changes in their lives. I have this feeling that we are literally removing the old DNA in our body.

I have been wanting to cut my hair for a few days now, despite a relatively recent haircut just about a month ago. Obviously, the old DNA wanted OUT! So i asked the universe for a great haircut, and this morning, when i told my sis i wanted my hair really short, she told me the salon near our place which is really cheap, was not too good with short hair. She told me to go to another one which we are regulars of, which is $25 instead of $4.90, but is really good.

I was like, “ok, the universe is sending me my great haircut this way… at least i know who to go to” and i know this hairstylist not only has excellent skills, but is very intuitive as well, and has the knack of styling your hair in a way that suits your personality. But i only had $5 in my wallet and didn’t feel like drawing money from my bank acct since my money was depleting.

Well, i didn’t fret about it and just went back to my room to the computer. Interestingly, the internet connection didn’t get started. It was as if the universe was telling me, “Not the internet now! You need to do something first.”


“Ask your sister to sponsor you for the haircut.”

Hmmm…. okaaayyyy…..

So i did, and she handed over the money, with a slight wry grimace, but well, there’s my sponsored haircut!

And I went back to the computer. Still the internet connection won’t start.

“What else?”

“Tell her about Inner Dance.” There was a free Inner Dance preview that evening.

Okaayyyy…. so i went along to tell her about it, and she was as usual skeptical and doubtful, but she asked me for details.

So I went back to the computer to retrieve the info, and this time i restarted the comp. Ok, a bit duh huh… maybe i shld have done that right from the start. But then i wldn’t have asked the universe for guidance and i wldn’t have gotten my sponsored haircut!

Anyway, i passed her the info, and i have this feeling that she went to check it out. Inner Dance has helped me so much in my transformation. I sure hope it would help her too. Anywayz, i have done what i could… the rest is up to her. 🙂

Btw, the haircut was great. 🙂 🙂 🙂 I now sport a really cool and sexy bob! This guy is really good… i’m going to have him cut my hair from now on! Already received a number of compliments on my hair today… and well, most importantly, i like it!

What else is new? I have a new way of working my healing sessions. I have been connecting with friends in these 2 days, and doing healing for them, and the universe “pushed” me to try out something new, which seems to be IT. A combination of Inner Dance, sound healing and…. channeling! The channeling is an unexpected outcome from Ailee’s sessions where while in trance, her client gets to dialogue with their “upstairs” whomever that may be. After 2 sessions with her, i seem to have gotten the hang of making that connection, and the Inner Dance and toning just puts me into trance mode, which makes the channeling happen almost automatically.

So far, the feedback’s been great, and the sessions leave me feeling highly energised. I’m almost like “begging” pple to let me try out my new healing stuff on them, cos it’s so interesting to experience myself doing new things in every session – new movements, new tunes, and it’s been really lovely channeling Guan Yin. She’s SOOOO happy! Whenever i feel her energy, i just wanna laugh all the time. And she’s so sweet too… heehee… so i can basically do this work all day long. Well, i’m gonna keep offering free sessions to pple until i develop this thing to the point when it feels like i shld charge. But then again, who knows. Maybe the energy exchange can be facilitated by the universe, so that i get provided for not directly by the recipient of the healing but in other ways.

Anyway, it’s interesting cos while the healing was offered for free, i gained both the intangible benefits of experience and connecting with the Divine, as well as tangible stuff such as free meal, free snacks, and objects like umbrella and book… little stuff, but which are really useful and practical for me. And the universe is definitely rewarding me, cos i’m receiving gifts all day long. Words of encouragement from advertisements and signs. Number signs appearing like crazy. My intuition getting louder and louder, and it’s getting easier for me to pay attention to it.

I even received an options trading chart from these AIA folks. The last time we met, I mentioned to them i was going to learn options trading. Today we met up, and the guy passed me the chart, which his friend gave to him over a year ago and which he had no use for cos he was into forex trading. The lady told me that he went to search for it, which i really appreciated, especially since we had only met once before. The two of them are such kind and helpful pple… and today, again, they gave me plentiful useful tips and advice on investments and trading. I feel like they are teachers that the universe sent me to guide me on the path of material success. I’m blessed, to have teachers for both the material and the spiritual… thanks universe!

The last thing that is new… my blog! It is time for me to move on… even this blog. I’m no longer fuzzy wuzzy…hahaha… and since i can’t change the user id, i gotta change my blog. Also, i feel like it’s time for me to blog in a different way as well. Still personal sharing, but less me-me-me, and more of insights about life and healing. I’m ready to step into my role of being a teacher, and blogging would be one of my means of teaching.

So here’s a big thank you to those of you who have been following my blog. Even if i may not know you in real life, we are connected energetically, and a huge reason why i write the things i write is also because of the energy on the other end.. which is you! (word count: 1212)

The year is coming to an end, and i expect whatever is no longer fitting, will continue to be purged out. I’m very very pleased with my year so far. It’s been interesting… chaotic at times, but it allowed me to walk my talk of “finding peace through life’s ups and downs” which is the tagline for my company Lena’s Healing Haven.

And so, it’s with great pleasure, that i invite you to visit my new blog

Thank you fuzzynale and Sweet Miracles… it’s been great while it lasted, and you will always be a part of me, even as I continue to expand into my fullest potential.


What are my priorities?

October 7, 2009 at 8:47 am | Posted in Manifestations, The journey within | Leave a comment

Got this question in The Inner Journey newsletter ( and thought it was a good topic to blog about, just to keep myself on track.

What are my priorities?

1) To heal myself – and that means to take total responsibility for my reality. Instead of blaming, acknowledging and accepting and letting go.

2) To support others on their healing journey – and that means improving my own techniques for healing through videos, audios, classes, books, or recommending others to proficient healers that I know.

3) To take care of my physical body – that means switching to green smoothies diet, daily Inner Dance, getting in touch with Mother Nature.

4) To embody qualities of compassion and wisdom – that means daily meditation, perhaps even going for a serious meditation retreat (Venerable Mahinda maybe!), loving myself and others more and dropping all judgments and criticism, being more mindful and staying present in each moment.

5) To allow infinite abundance into my life – abundance of LOVE, MONEY, JOY and everything that is good. I would like to be a walking example of how you can be spiritual and “filthy rich” at the same time. 🙂

6) To be a friend to all – whether you are male or female, rich or poor, good looking or less so… to learn to see beyond all these superficial stuff and connect to you as another precious human being.

7) To be constantly grateful for Life – for all its rich flavours, the sweet spicy, even the bitter (suan1 tian2 ku3 la4!), that allows ME to become more flavourful as a human being. 🙂

8) To take care of Mother Earth – which means to send blessings and love to Mother Earth whenever possible, cut down and recycle whereever possible, take part in activities that involve saving Mother Earth.

9) To l0ve, love, love….

10) Still, to love, love love….

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